Jan 16, 2013
It’s not that I have these experiences all the time.
Quite the contrary.
Usually my heart feels pretty dull. It takes fervent prayer over God’s Word before I even start to feel desire for Him.
But I want to share what happened Thursday, to encourage you with what God can do in a dull heart.
An Ongoing Battle
I’ve written before about how (to my shame) I can be jealous of others with more recognition than me. And recently I’ve battled this by praying —
If you will be more glorified by having others receive more recognition than me, then that’s what I want. Because my greatest joy is beholding your glory, not receiving recognition.
But it would help me believe this, if I could see and feel more of your all-satisfying glory now.
So please, Father, through your Holy Son Jesus, by the work of your Spirit, show me your glory.
A Dull Heart
So last Thursday I was heading out to the creek trail to pray about this and other things. But my heart was dull — not much faith or love or joy in God.
And yet I knew I could come to him as I was, trusting Jesus’ blood and righteousness to make me acceptable (Luke 18:13), and praying for the work of the Spirit to change my heart (Luke 11:13).
So I turned my heart toward the Father. I told him I was coming in Jesus’ name, cleansed by his blood and clothed with his righteousness. I thanked him for the forgiveness and welcome I had through his Son.
I knew God provides the Spirit as we hear his word with faith (Gal 3:5), so I started praying over verses that describe God like —
Be still and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth. (Psa 46:10)
Worthy are you to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things. (Rev 4:11)
To him who loves us and freed us from our sins by his blood. (Rev 1:5)
For you, O Lord, are good and forgiving, abounding in steadfast love to all who call upon you. (Psa 86:5)
As I prayed over these verses, I felt the Holy Spirit strengthening my faith. And then — God showed me his glory.
I saw in my mind and felt in my heart the beauty of his sovereignty, supremacy, power, and mercy in Christ. It was spectacular.
He was real. He was there. Perfect majesty. Stunning power. Flawless justice. Breathtaking mercy.
Filled To Overflowing
I felt incomparable pleasure in beholding him. I had to shout “YES! You are AWESOME!”
I was so filled and satisfied in his glory that I wanted nothing else.
But then I thought — Wait a minute. What about recognition? Do I still desire recognition?
I checked my heart. Nope. Didn’t want it. Didn’t need it. Didn’t care about it.
I had God the Father and Jesus the Son.
I was full. I was free.
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