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on: June 28, 2016, 18:18
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Hi everyone,
My name is Marissa and I'm 22 years old and I'm in a really bad place right now and I just really need some actual Christian friends as oppose to my fake ones. I tend to go on so I'm gonna try and sum up. I grew up in the church and a "perfect" family as most would see it. Parents happily married and both godly parents with 4 daughters including myself. Throughout my life I was never in a good place with God. I would go to church and kind of just go through the motions but I had never really surrendered to God and ask Him into my life. I only did that when I was about 18 or 19. But I quickly fell back into my selfishness and pride and not treating my parents well and just genuinely not being a nice person. I went to a secular college for a one year certificate program thinking I wanted to get into music theatre. I lived on my own for the first time and was right with God for maybe the first week, but quickly found myself at parties drinking, smoking, having sex and getting high on really stupid things. Whenever Ive messed up in my life my parents have always found out and we end up having this huge lecture and I end up saying that I'm gonna start over and do better and this will never happen again. Meanwhile, I kept falling into weed and alcohol. I was never an addict cuz I could function without drugs or alcohol, but I was obviously not trusting in God for anything. When my parents found out about the weed, it gave me a huge wake up call from God. God tends to speak through my dad a lot. So I ended up staying at home for another year when I was supposed to be going back to college. In that year, God revealed to me that I need to be going to a Christian college. So I looked up Christian colleges that had a good music program(God has given me the gift of music and I have been using it for His glory since I was 12). Anyways, so I found this Christian college and went to it for one semester and got kicked out for the second semester because they found out I had a drink at a restaurant and that I hooked up with a guy. I was doing so well in te beginning of the semester and then in the middle somewhere I just got lost and fell into a slump. I found a friend who had the same struggles as me and we ended up falling into our past again. So I took the second semester off and came home to straighten up so the college would let me back for the fall semester of 2016. Long story short, I fell once again back into weed and alcohol. My parents foun out again and my mom has gotten to the point where she can't even look at me and she can't believe a word that comes out of my mouth. My dad is giving me the benefit of the doubt again cuz he is just an amazing person that way. So anyways, I'm sorry if that was a little over the place but I'm just wondering why I'm constantly falling. Can God really keep forgiving me for doing the same stupid things over and over again? Cuz I feel like I'm stuck in this never ending circle where I ask for forgiveness and stay on the straight and narrow for a little while and then I fall right back into temptation and it takes my parents finding out about these things for me to get back with God...I just wanna know how I can get my moms trust back and I want to be sure that God really does forgive me over and over again. Sorry for the novel. Thanks for reading 🙂

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on: July 16, 2016, 13:57
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Hi dear Marissa,
I hear you. My experience in life is, that there is a deeper reason in all what happens. Often there is a connection to our past/childhood, or we even carry issues and programms of our family members, not even knowing, that we do. I have a long story of tries and errors to find healing of old wounds and emotional addictions. At least I finally accepted my innocence and this was the moment, when JESUS came into my life..or the moment, when I was ready to receicve HIM in my heart. Please know, that there is nothing wrong with you deep inside. GOD made you perfectly, you only carry wrong unconscious thinking about yourself and you can ask JESUS for help to take all wrong attitudes towards yourself away and feel your real truth, given by GOD. It is difficult to describe all this in some sentences and I hope I can give you a little hope about how to deal with your situation. At least there is nothing better than to pray together...as where two or three come together in HIS name, there HE is in his loving presence and I experience this again and again in the HERE and NOW..

God bless you,
Bridgette

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on: July 26, 2016, 19:11
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Thanks so much Bridgette! It means a lot to me that you listened and replied...thank you so much for your encouragement and I pray blessings for you and your family 🙂

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